hello says:
Kill yourself.
Sarah says:
Hmm, why?
hello says:
Killing yourself would allow you to live within your life’s adventure–no longer withered by the decay, no longer inhibited by the virus, opposing the destruction & timid placcidity of your tracks.
Sarah says:
Thats a good point
hello says:
(didn’t mean Kill Yourself in the literal sense; meant Kill Yourself the ego, the surface, the restricted one)
Sarah says:
But it would be hard to choose which fantasy to live in
hello says:
Would it be a choice?
Sarah says:
Yesh
there are many
Unless I could drift in and out of all of them
hello says:
What would make it a choice? Maybe the fantasy, having already been aware of your coming towards it, already rests at the moment you Die.
Maybe you can drift in & out of them. Isn’t that what human growth is? A temporary set of levels & fantasies inducted into our psyche to ‘form’ someone, an identity, for the time being?
Sarah says:
Yes, you move from one mindset to the next, every changing, not always for the better
But to live insideones fantasy, the dream must evolve some kind of reality
Like a coma
Maybe I should go into a coma
hello says:
The better/worse is an obstacle, a time-wheel..& the dream seeps through one’s eyelids. Their fingertips. Your lips & mind’s -need- to create. Coma?
No. Don’t go into a coma.
Maybe you should, come think of it.
Sarah says:
I would have the choice of coming back to reality if I like
intact wth my essence, able to live in the dream for however long I chooce without having ti kill a part of myself
hello says:
I didn’t know people -chose- to stay inside comas. But your consciousness would be asleep; certainly, your world, your dream, your real life fantasy is alive, but it’s a galaxy & universes inside a dime. Do you think you could live inside that?
“I would have the choice of coming back to reality if I like” — Sarah Nicole Newman describing insanity
Sarah says:
lmao
Yes indeed

I think that the reason why some peole stay in comas for years is because they do not want to part with thatever dream they are having
whatever*
They choose to stay and live in it, noknowing how much time that is passing while they are asleep
And teh other, that only sleep for a short couple of days, are the ones to realize that they have spent too much time in dream land. Either that, or they do not like the fantasy they are having
hello says:
How long do you think you’d stay for?
Sarah says:
Thats hard to say
I think with all my family and friends…the longest I would stay would be a week, maybe two
But lets say I was alone..or really old. I would probably stay as long as my mind would let me
hello says:
As long as your mind would let you.. Which implies that your mind–you–would ‘let’ you go, implying that it wouldn’t be a choice at all. Other than the choice to let yourself go, which you didnt predetermine, but was allowed.
What do you know about the subconscious reality?
Sarah says:
I ment….Hmm. When I dream I usually can control the dream, but only as far as I have thought th fantasy out
hello says:
ah
Sarah says:
If I have not created an ending yet, then it just ends, and I wake up. But if I have thought it out.the dream keeps going till I reach the end, no matter if I wake up in the middle, when I go back to sleep my dream will pick up where it left off
hello says:
like the drawing board before a film crew shoots a scene?
Sarah says:
Exactally
hello says:
So you’re essentially creating your own..dream.
Sarah says:
Yup
And I can only dream as many scenes as I have drawn out before hand
Or else it halts to a sudden ending
hello says:
Doesn’t that depend on what you know, or are curious about, though?
Sarah says:
How do you mean?
Dreams bend the limits of reality, so here really is no limit to it. Though, a realistic dream….I would have to know certian facts for it to continue
hello says:
Right
Sarah says:
I cant dream about the outer limits of space realisticly when I have no intelegence onit
hello says:
But people make the arguments that dreams are manifestos of our subconscious’ reality, what’s seen “as real”; & our subconscious relies on what’s “supposedly” soaked up by our conscious awareness.
I’m a stubborn ass because you’ve interested me, & I only mean to understand you better
Sarah says:
Thats only half of it…Part of a dream is what you see and know. and the other half is what you want it to be
No your fine, I am enjoying this conversation
Half reality, half fantasy
hello says:
Okay
Sarah says:
I do believe that Dreams have an underlying meaning
hello says:
the ‘you’ in those sentences, do you mean the ‘you’; the external, the part of ourselves (yourself) that needs to kill itself, or the inner us? The core ‘you’ that relishes on..internal cognitives?
As do I.
Which makes me wonder why I woke up with you on my mind.
Sarah says:
Hmm, the inner part
the part thats there but no one really knows about. Its the part that you can not control, it just lays, silent observing and taking everything in
hello says:
The you that you’re unaware of, even.
Sarah says:
Maybe I was in your dream? Did you dream last night, do you remember?
Yup
You dont know its there, but it is
hello says:
Only the last few moments before I wake up, I remember. You dont know its there, but it is. Reminds me of Jung’s theory about The Collective Unconscious; & that whole..thing dissecting one’s ENTIRE conscious being as an onion, or multi-layered pyramid.

So then, why.. How often do you ‘plan’ to escape the chains & storms of your life’s events, when you dream?
Maybe you -were- in my dream. It’d make sense, considering what I discovered today. Hm.
Sarah says:
I have several daydreams through out the day. Mosty plans for my story and what not….Dependsing on what interests me I might plan something out all day. And when I go to bed, I lay there in te darkess and daydream, which often leads to living it out when I go to sleep
It depends on how long it takes for me to go to sleep to determine how far I plan it all out
Though, of course there are always times where I hve a dream that I did not plan out, that I have no control over. 

I dont have a sense of logi

There is no way to tell if its true or not. Not now anyways, but its realin its own right for just being thought 

That movie….I think Iwould like to see it, it sounds interesting

hello says:

Wanna make out?

Sarah says:

lmao

The two best ways to start a conversation “Kill yourself” and “Wanna make out”

hello says:

Sarah says:

Indeed Mr. CoolMan

hello says:

Well, in my defense, it doesn’t let me know when you’re typing or not, so that was more or less a check to see if you’re finished

Sarah says:

Ahh

Should I state I am finished when I am so then>

 

hello says:

But that makes it sound like we’re robots.

SentenceSentenceSentenceSentenceSentence.

I am finished.

It.Is.Your.Turn.Speak.
SentenceSentenceSentenceSentenceSentenceSentenceSentenceSentence.

I am finished.

Sarah says:

Replyreplyreply

I am finished

hello says:

Objectioncounter-reply.

I am finished.

Sarah says:

Opinionstated

I am finished

Hmm your right, very robot like

..I am finiahes

finished*

hello says:

Nice to meet you, Finiahes. I’m Ajke.

Sarah says:

Robots dont typo though

lmao

 

hello says:

Well they would if they had faulty wiring. I think.

Sarah says:

True

hello says:

Which WOULD make sense, since you can control your own dreams: The faulty wiring resulting in you thinking that you can control your programming.

Sarah says:

A computer program made up by a 5 year old

lmao!

“Excuse me Mr.Robot, how come you spelled my name wrong?”…..”Because my master is young enough to be your baby brother”

“My baby brother knows how to spell my name”…..”Well then my master is a retard”

hello says:

xD

Sarah says:

-rolls over laughing-

hello says:

brb (has to go blow his nose ’cause snot came flying out)

Sarah says:

lmao!

Okies

 

hello says:

I hope your master is proud of himself.

Making me taste my own snot. Pft. What a jerk.

Sarah says:

He should be…other than being a retard he likes to laugh at others inconviences

hello says:

*Wonders what he made Finiahes programmed to do, when he leasts expects it >_O*

Sarah says:

lmao

 

hello says:

..

Sarah says:

I don know

he never told me

hello says:

I believe we were having a serious discussion.

Sarah says:

We were

hello says:

But now I feel like smearing my snot on you.

Just as payback.

Sarah says:

but then there was out making going on, and then we dound out I was a robot

hello says:

’cause smearing snot on you would be equal to smearing snot on your Programmer. 

SO I MADE OUT WITH A SYSTEM OF ELECTRICAL WIRES?!??!

Sarah says:

hello says:

No wonder your kiss was so..electric.

Sarah says:

Wouldnt that make me short circut?

Or is that equal to an orgasim? 

I dont think my Master would know what that is though

hello says:

You know I honestly hadn’t thought of that 0.0

Yeah but he could have programmed you to think he didn’t know what that was.

Sarah says:

Thats true….he is a smart little retard isnt he

hello says:

Maybe he designed you so he could get some cause all the other 5 year old girls laughed at his retardedness.

Sarah says:

Hmm

true

Maybe thats why is always say he has to “Tune me up”

He always says he fixed me, and yet I still typo need to find a friend to hack into my system and see whats going on in there…see what all he blocked programs are about

hello says:

*The

OMG HE BASTARD DID IT AGAIN

Sarah says:

Damn him!

hello says:

Wait wait wait wait, you’re admitting you’re a robot? ADMITTING!?.. Oh..My..

Sarah, if that’s your real name, I swear I won’t tell anyone just don’t kill me please God dont kill me please don’t kill me I dont wanna die yet DONT KILL ME

Sarah says:

I thought thats what we had agreed on?….

hello says:

It was pure speculation.

Sarah says:

lmao

Hmm

hello says:

*raises eyebrow*

Sarah says:

I thought it was true

But I am not sure

hello says:

Wait.

Sarah says:

-waits-

 

hello says:

Have you had your period recently?

Sarah says:

Yes…why?

hello says:

*phew*

Sarah says:

lmao

hello says:

Well now we know you’re human

Sarah says:

Ohh

hello says:

You know why girls have periods?

Sarah says:

What if I am programed to do it though?

hello says:

It’s them battling The Programmer internally, & the period is a signature of the Programmer’s blood.

Sarah says:

Ahhh

hello says:

Oh fuck

 

Sarah says:

that makes sence

hello says:

Hadn’t. Thought of that.

Sarah says:

Exactally

hello says:

AAHHHHHHHH

THIS IS ALL FUCKING WITH MY HEAD, MAAN.

Sarah says:

How do we find out the truth?

hello says:

We’re gonna have to get inside you.

First we’ll cloraphorgm you.

Then put you on a table.

& cut you open.

To see your insides.

 

Then, once inside, we’ll have to surgically exponentient the contents of your insides by slicing those open. Heart. Lungs. Tissue. Spine. Guts. Etc.

Sure, you’ll die. But, uh. At least we’ll know

Sarah says:

..but wouldnt I die?

Well

you would knoe

I wuld just be dead

and cluless

 

hello says:

Do you believe in spirits?

Sarah says:

Yes

Hmm

I have a   better idea

hello says:

Alright lets hear it.

Sarah says:

why dont we just hook a computer up to me, and see if anything popps up asking if we want to download and files 

Sure, if I am not a robot I ill get shocked, but I wont die

and if I am, then we can download the files and see whats going on inside my circuts

hello says:

Okay.

 

*Circuits

Sarah says:

Oh oh!

hello says:

Do your typos have anything to do with you being stressed, Mrs.PotentialRoboSarah?

Sarah says:

Hmm

I dont knoe

know*

I was stressed a couple days ago, but I am fine now

hello says:

The 28th?

Sarah says:

Yes….any reason why you choose that date?

 

hello says:

http://www.xvideos.com/video146836/cumshot ;D

The 28th was when the moon was Full. I’m not sure what sign it was in, though.

Sarah says:

Ahh

I can ot belive you just sent me to a porn site

 

hello says:

o.O XD

I didn’t think you’d click it. o.O

Sarah says:

Well….I did

 

hello says:

….

woops

Sarah says:

lmao

hello says:

 

for the record, it’s an amateur video, & the woman’s face when she moans & groans & screams is stunning.

I like her hair.

Sarah says:

Well. I will just have to take your word for it, because I am not going to watch it

 

hello says:

remember when being half-naked had taste? Class? Remember when people used the naked body to sensual extremes, & not just a quick whambamthankyaman?

Sarah says:

..Its funny that you say that “whanbamthankyamam” I was thinking abouttat phrase today

And yes I do remeber…its not something that I get to experience anymore

 

hello says:

Really? Man/m’am Why were you thinking of it?
& have you been anywhere else other than..Oh shoot..I forgot where you live..WV? Chicago. Have you ever been to SanFran? Or India? Or someplace that enhances the sensory stimulation rather than just surface “BANGBANGUNGHGHGHGH”?

Wait wait wait, wouldn’t you be able to experience it in your dreams? The dreams that you control & plan for..

Sarah says:

i live in wyoming ,and have previously lived in florida ohio and california

and of course there are my dreams

 

hello says:

Wyowyowyo. OH SHIT you just remindd me of something thank you

Sarah says:

lmao no problem

Its nice to be of service even when you dont realize it

…To be continued…