How come friends cant just be friends without someone having to look at you and think you differently because of it? What does it matter to them what I do, it does not effect them, so why should they care? Why is there so many labels on a friends ship just because of the actions that are taken within it?

One thing that bothers me the most is that people think that a man and a woman cant be just friends. What is “just friends” anyways? Sex is sex, it does not mean that there is any other meaning behind it. If I want sexual attention, I would rather have it with someone I know and trust. What is so wrong with that…Nothing.

And even discluding sex, there are so many other things that people try to label a friendship as. Even if its with two girls…people always think that something is going on, same with men. And I dont mean just sexually, there is so much more. Though sexually seems to be the big one in most situations. Even if it is relevent, it does not mean they are wrong for it.

What suproses me the most…is that someone who you think will always be your friend, turns out to change thier mind, or not be sure about it. I dont judge, there is no point. Everyone has thier own oppinion, and there is nothing I can do to change that. Everything in life has good and bad in it, it just depends on how the two weigh eachother out. And in the end, there is still good, no matter how small.

I have lost alot of friends that way, because I was jugded.

There are alot of things I want to say, most of which having absolutly nothing to do with anything said above. I am not sure how to out any of it into words though. There are problems at home, nothing serious just everyday things…And then there are problems in site, not exactally problems, just..complications.

And then there is myself…I dont really have issues with my own being, but I just wish things would move along faster for me. There are alot of things I need to get done, to start moving myself forward in life. The thing is, is that I dont ahve all the much control of the situation. I know its mylife, and my choices, but when it comes to work and school and such…There is only so much I can do before someone else give the go ahead to move me tot he next step. Its all very frustrating.

I took a friends advice the other day and got out of the house and spent some time for myself. I needed it, even if it was only for alittle while, it just needed to get away for a day and refelect on everything. I feel much better now, though there are still somethings I am having probles with, but thats just how life goes.

I am starting to realize some things about the people around me, weather it be good or bad, my eyes are starting to see past first impressions. Its amazing the variety of people I know and associate with, some of them good, and others not so good. But friends all the same, weather it be on a day to day baises, or every now and again when we bump into eachother.

I used to think that I was not much for making friends, that I was shy. I used to be very shy not to long ago, but something blossomed inside of  me, and I am starting to get to knwo myself, as well as others.